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When talking about my illness, I usually talk in the plural. A wise friend of ours at Church remarked that many people ask about the patient, overlooking the patient’s spouse who also suffers. So this is our story – Helen’s and mine.
There are clear stages from diagnosis through treatment and subsequent surveillance. The constant and crucial factor has been the generosity and empathy of all involved in providing the support that we have needed over the last 5 years.
Diagnosis
Our diagnosis came completely out of the blue. There were some symptoms: slight indigestion and general tiredness after a busy time at work. Investigations were ordered the first of which uncovered a Duodenal Ulcer which accounted for all of the stated symptoms. We were stunned 3 days later at Bournemouth Hospital when receiving feedback on a CT scan to hear the life changing news that I had a tumour on my Pancreas.
Nurse Specialist Emily took us to a separate room for tea and a discussion. She explained what we could expect and that she would be our single point of contact for any enquiries we might have. She also advised us not to search the internet, but to rely on Macmillan and the NHS websites to answer our questions.
It was she who rang the following week with the news that the cancer had not spread to my lungs. A surreal conversation followed with Helen as I said, “Good News darling, I have only got pancreatic cancer!” This became a crucial part of our coping strategy. Be clear what ‘Good’ looks like today. It may be different to tomorrow, or indeed from yesterday, but it’s a way to find the positive in a place where you really don’t want to be.
Surgery
Ahead of the initial clinic, we read up Pancreatic Cancer on the Macmillan website and prepared points to raise. Mr Arshad at Southampton covered all this and more, leaving us confident that we would be well looked after. Here was a clear plan! After the operation, he explained that the tumour had been removed with a clear margin; there was a small amount of pancreas remaining. He had to remove the Spleen as well.
36 hrs after discharge from hospital, there was a complication, needing emergency re-admission. The ward told to take my emergency medication and go straight up; not to delay in A&E. This was not in “the plan”. I had something of a melt down. Helen, on the other hand, got me into the car and we went straight in, not passing ‘Go’ and not collecting £200 (for the Monopoly aficionados)!
Chemo
When describing the treatment path, Mr Arshad had cheerfully indicated surgery, recovery and then Chemo for 6 months. This sounded overwhelming until he explained that was actually 12 cycles of 2 weeks. We could manage a fortnight project, so that’s how we tackled it. As we were preparing for the chemo to begin, lockdown was declared. These were interesting times in more ways than we would have liked!
We returned from the first infusion with a large brown paper bag full of medication. Each type had different instructions. The only way that we could manage it was to draw up a table for each 14 days cycle and mark in what was to be taken when. The same table captured ‘observations’ so we had a paper record ahead of phone calls with the team.
The Oncology teams were brilliant, both in Lymington, and in Southampton. We had telephone reviews each cycle which brought their own challenges. It took a little while to grow used to discussing bowel movements with somebody I had never met! By the time I did describe what I now know to be peripheral neuropathy halfway up my legs, the team immediately removed one particular chemo drug from the mix. In discussion with Dr Charlotte Rees, the Oncology consultant, we stopped the treatment after 10 cycles.
Support
I said at the outset of this story that, for us, the excellent medical treatment reinforced by the support structure, upheld us throughout this very difficult episode in our lives.
Nurse Emily in Christchurch and Nurse Lyndsey in Southampton proved unflappable, with access to the right people at the drop of a hat (or text). This has been particularly relevant around the annual surveillance reviews, when I tend to develop significant hypochondria!
We have been active members of our local church for 25 or more years. The support from them and our wider families has been enormously valuable. When I was down, Helen had trusted friends and family on whom to lean. In fact, it was only recently that she shared her anxieties and fears though that time. Taking an additional pair of ears to appointments has been invaluable.
We decided to get involved with Planets to keep in touch with the team, and to see if we could provide encouragement to others on their own particular journeys. Caitlin the Dietician’s cheerful and practical advice around Creon has been beneficial. Also, learning about Maggie’s Cancer Support Services at Southampton for those newly diagnosed.
Lessons
We have tried to pick out some lessons that we have learned from this time in our lives:
~ Treatment for a complex condition is all about teamwork and interpersonal relationships. Build them and maintain them.
~ Understand and own “the plan”.
~ Build and nurture a support team on whom you can rely, and whose judgement you trust.
~ In the thick of it, ask yourself “What does Good look like today?”
~ During chemo, don’t be squeamish. It will impact your digestive system. Don’t be shy to talk about anything and everything.
Looking Ahead
When we started, Mr Arshad said that after a surveillance programme of 10 years, he would declare us healed. We are halfway there.
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